Thoughts

I started thinking about whether I want to continue with Elementary Education or move up to Secondary. At the same time I've also been thinking about switching over to military science but I'm not really sure. I've always thought about being a teacher because my dad is a teacher. Growing up I had a lot of dreams and aspirations but I was told a lot of them are just dreams and they aren't realistic, which was true. So I decided I want to become a teacher because I like kids and at the same time I want to become a positive influence. When it comes to things I find that helping others makes me happy but at the same time I cant really help myself. I've also wanted to become a combat medic because I want to aid the wounded and tend to people on the battlefield. So no matter which direction I go, I'll still be helping people either way. At the same time college isn't for me, I've been taking classes and going through the motion but at the same time I just don't feel for it. It isn't for me but it's what my parents want so I'm putting up with it for them. I mean I want to be a teacher, but at the same time I feel like I can't do it. I don't know.
I don't really know what I want to do honestly.